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April 18, 2013Posted by on
Up top, there’s a tab for The Irrepairable Past, which holds drafts of the first couple of chapters for one of my works in progress. I’ve completed the first three chapters and am halfway there with chapter four and the final chapter. There are two or three chapters between four and the last. As I’ve written before, there are two major things that prompted this story. One was reading a short story by a friend. He wrote poetry for years and only recently had started writing short stories. How he wrote was pretty incredible and I could see how poetry had influenced his efforts. I decided to try something. With each chapter of The Irrepairable Past, I begin with a poem that says something about what’s to come in the chapter. I believe the writing in this story has been influenced by those poems — they set the stage for a different rhythm and pace. Or maybe I’m just imagining it.
Anyway, here, for Day #18 of NaPoMo, is the poem that leads off the final chapter
Slings and arrows
Deep and wide
Memories and regret
Pain and anguish
Loss and failure
Broken and shattered
Turn it back
March 17, 2013Posted by on
I get to blog tonight! You may be asking yourself how this can be in light of my most recent posts about trying to limit myself here. You may also be thinking hmmm, ‘get to’ sounds somewhat like a privilege. You would be right about the privilege thing — I need to think of it that way. A privilege I need to earn.
Maybe you read my very last post — For Zoe — the one about a certain door being opened yesterday at a writing workshop.
It didn’t just open, it was blown open. Since then, I’ve written 3,000 words on The Irrepairable Past. I don’t remember the last time I was able to write that many words in a twenty-four hour period. There’s more to come. I know what’s coming on the portion I’m working on. I know how it’ll end. And, once I finish this chunk, I’ll be able to get back to the three intervening chapters I haven’t touched yet. It’s a damn incredible feeling.
So, here’s what I want to share with you tonight. One of my best blogging friends, Olivia O’Bryon, told me about a book a few days ago Breakfast with Buddha by Roland Merullo. She read it and thought it seemed comparable to Weed Therapy, my as-yet-unpublished novel, based on my descriptions of the story.
Amazon delivered it a couple of days ago and I’ve been reading it ever since. And doing something I never do, particularly with fiction. I’m underlining passages and making notes in the margin. There are these rare books that strike a deep chord with me. Everything Matters did it. So did The Art of Racing in the Rain. I have this feeling Breakfast with Buddha will be added to the list. Here’s the first passage I underlined:
What’s the point of all this? would be putting the question too crudely, but it was something along those lines. All this striving and aggravation, all these joys and miseries, all this busyness, all this stuff — a thousand headlines, a hundred thousand conversations, emails, meetings, tax returns, warranties, bills, privacy notices, ads for Viagra, calls for donations, election cycles, war in the news every day, trips to the dump with empty wine bottles, fillings and physicals, braces and recitals, Jeanne’s moods, my moods, the kids’ moods, soccer tournaments, plumber bills, sitcom characters, oil changes, wakes, weddings, watering the flowerbeds — all of this, I started to ask myself, leads exactly where? To a smashed-up Buick on a country highway? And then what? Paradise?
You want to talk about the question and conversation that has filled my head for years and continues to do so more and more and more. In the quiet hours of the morning. In the hustle and bustle of the work day. While I’m alone in my car or out on my bike. When I’m in a room full of people, listening to three different conversations but participating in none of them. While my kids tell me of their day. While my wife chatters on about her this and her that.
It’s right there … is this it? Is this the point? Is this why I do all that I do? Is this the limit of where and who I will be? The author of Breakfast with Buddha hit the nail on the head. I feel like I live the ordinary and I ache for something more. I want, no, I need, that more. It’s right there, just outside of my reach, and I keep wondering if I’ll ever grasp it and pull it to me and live incredibly.
There are many more underlined passages I’m going to use as jumping off points for a post here, but this is the first.
What do you think? What’s the point of what you do? Does there need to be a point? What does all that we are add up to in the end? And do we even have the ability to change the calculation?
You want to talk about a book that is in my head, it’s Breakfast with Buddha. Pretty stunning thing to read a book that lays out on almost every page a thought I have, in almost the same words as I do.
March 16, 2013Posted by on
Right around this time, I started attending a monthly writing workshop conducted by Zoe. An older woman who halfway through her life took a pause and enrolled in a writing program at Columbia College. No, not that one — the Columbia University in New York. This one. In Chicago. Zoe teachers her workshops in the style promoted by Columbia College.
I may not do it justice, but we spend four hours together, one Saturday each month. There are readings from other writers to provide for discussion of a particular method of telling a story. Last month was model telling. This month was dreams, memories, and fantasies.
At some point, we began to … well, I think of it as pulling words out and throwing them out for consideration. Clear your mind and say what the first word is in your mind. Create a place where that word fits. Move it to the side, clear your mind, and then say the next work that pops into your head. Create a place where that word fits. Move it to the side, clear your mind and do it again. You get the idea?
In all these months, and it has been somewhat off and on, I’ve struggled with a little bit of dissatisfaction about the workshops. You know me. I’m a point A to point B to point C type of person. I need to feel like I’m progressing, that what I’m doing contributes to that movement forward. I wasn’t feeling that way about these workshops until today.
Zoe said something that was so simple and basic. It’s one of those moments where I felt like smacking my forehead and saying “doh!”
Those word and visualization exercises were never meant to just be done within the comforting confines of the workshop. Instead, they are something we, as writers, should be doing regularly as a part of our writing process. Spend five minutes seeing what words pop into your head. Write them down. See if they have a place in what you’re working on or prompt you to begin something completely new.
And then another thing happened this afternoon. The last third or so of each workshop is spent writing. To create an opportunity to write, each of us visualize a place — it could be a scene in an existing story, a scene in a planned story, or something totally new. Then, we begin to fill that scene in. Who is there and what are they doing. Identify an expected object in the scene. Then identify an unexpected object. Identify an expected smell and an unexpected smell. Identify a near sound and a far sound. And, finally, identify something that is about to change in the scene. And, if you choose, take all of that and write it.
My last post was about how my writing energy has gone to blogging for far too long. Today’s workshop brought me back into fiction. My scene creation was about the scene that beings the final chapter of The Irrepairable Past. It got those fiction juices flowing again. I now know how I’m going to begin that chapter and with that in mind, I’m pretty sure I can write the entire chapter. There’s the little conundrum of the three or four chapters that proceed it that I haven’t quite cracked, but …
I’m excited about this story again. Since the workshop ended about five hours ago, I’ve been back at Sullivan Bay in Henry’s world. It’s the kick in the pants I needed. The spark. Time to go write.
Thank you, Zoe. I learned a couple of things today.