Another blogger recommended a couple of daily “meditation” books. They both purport to provide you with 365 thoughts — do the math, that’s one per each day of the year!
I got one of the books today, the other will arrive next week. So, thought #1 is this…
This is the moment of embarking. All auspicious signs are in place.
In the beginning all things are hopeful. We prepare ourselves to start anew. Though we may be intent on the magnificent journey ahead, all things are contained in this first moment: our optimism, our faith, our resolution, our innocence.
In order to start, we must make a decision. This decision is a commitment to daily self-cultivation. We must make a strong connection to our inner selves. Outside matters are superfluous. Alone and naked, we negotiate all of life’s travails. Therefore, we alone must make something of ourselves, transforming ourselves into the instruments for experiencing the deepest spiritual essence of life.
Once we make our decisions, all things will come to us. Auspicious signs are not a superstition, but a confirmation. They are a response. It is said that if one chooses to pray to a rock with enough devotion, even that rock will come alive. In the same way, once we choose to commit ourselves to spiritual practice, even the mountains and valleys will reverberate to the sound of our purpose.
— 365 Tao: Daily Meditations; Ming-Dao Deng
I spare you all of the whys and the wherefores. Regular readers will know that there are many things I’ve struggled with in the five years I’ve been blogging. Just a couple of the whys and the wherefores — it is a distraction from other things, it hasn’t quite turned into what I had hoped it would be. And there are these other things I claim to want to do. Like writing and painting and running and experiencing the world. But every evening and for far too many hours on the weekend, I surf the internet. I read your blogs. I ponder if there is something for me to blog about.
And then I do it all over again.
So, I’ve made a decision. I’m taking a bit of a hiatus. Yes, I’ve said this before, but this time I think it’s for real. I don’t know how long it will be because what really matters is if I make a change in the dynamic of my life and regain some balance and re-engage in a real way with those other things. The things that seem so much harder when lurking on the internet is so much easier and takes such little energy.
It’s not just my blog that I’m going to take a hiatus from. It’s most forms of social media. It’s time to reclaim my life from this thing called the internet and social media and taking the easy way out with my free time.
I’m going to embark. The auspicious signs are in place. Many people who know me in my day-to-day existence believe I’m a pessimist. I am called, somewhat jokingly but still, the Angel of Darkness at work. Others have referred to me as an Eeyore. The truth is, however, that I am an eternal optimist. I began every day with a hope and a belief that something good will come of the day.
And so I am hopeful that … well, I’m going to pray to a rock and see what happens.
See you around. I will be back at that time when I am ready, when I have changed the dynamic. If you want to continue the dialogue we have had between your blog and mine, I would love to hear from you via email because, yes, I can’t completely escape technology and I believe in the power of conversation. Shoot me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org. Let’s talk.