I’ve been a huge fan of Spotify for several years now. For $10 a month I can pretty much listen to whatever I want. Plus there are all sorts of features that allow me to find new artists and new music. And I have certainly found some incredible music because of Spotify.
A few days ago, a new playlist showed up on my Spotify app. Your Top Songs for 2016. I’ve tossed around (in my head) how to share this playlist here.
And I’ll do it like this. There was this thing that happened to me a few years ago that made me pay attention to the words of songs more than I had ever done before. Ever since then, I’ve been attracted to songs with a certain mood and a certain feel. The list of songs Spotify tells me are my top songs for 2016 reinforces this.
I looked at the top songs on the list and realized that they said something about me and where I am.
And that I need to make some changes. (A concept I’ve touched on here on my blog off an on over the years I’ve occupied this corner of the internet, but not much lately.)
This blog is going quiet for now. The vast majority of songs on my Spotify 2016 list are sad. They are yearning. They are about things lost or never found. There is a reason for this. And it’s time for me to change the mood. The feel. Of my life.
Here’s the list from Spotify. It’s not the entire list of songs and not every song fits what I’ve just described. But … well … go to YouTube, search for a few of these, and you’ll understand.
Like Rock and Roll and the Radio — Ray LaMontagne
Time — Griffin House
The Pretender — Jackson Browne
Older Chests — Damien Rice
My Body — Young the Giant (Okay, this is likely the song that doesn’t fit here just because of the energy of the song. Just absolutely love the energy … and maybe it’s that energy I need to capture.)
You Are the Best Thing — Ray LaMontagne
Only Love Remains — Griffin House
Goodbye — Mick Flannery
Sky Blue and Black — Jackson Browne
There’s No Leaving Now — Tallest Man on Earth
No Envy No Fear — Joshua Radin
Trouble — Ray LaMontagne
Thinking Out Loud — Ed Sheeran
Real Love Can’t Pretend — Griffin House
You might ask what does this list have to do with my blog going quiet. Well, you know, it’s just about rewiring myself. It is about, as Kevin Brennan said a few weeks ago … it’s about kicking the squid. It’s about winning the day. Every day. It’s about ending the wallowing. It’s about saying enough is enough.
I started this blog around five years ago. I really started blogging in earnest about six months after that. I have read a lot of incredible bloggers, some incredible people, some talented people, some people I’d love to meet in person and make a part of my circle.
But, you know, I just need to try something different. I need to kick the squid. I spend too much time, waste too much time, here and on Facebook and other websites, and surfing the internet because that’s easier than trying to get something done. Internet time takes away from what’s real and what matters. (Not that none of you matter, it just kind of needs to change. I need to stop yearning and stop so much.)
It starts now. I’m gone for awhile. Not here on my blog. Not reading your blogs, if you have one. I’m just taking a break. Re-wiring. Kicking the squid. Figuring things out.