A Bit of an Explanation
July 7, 2015
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I used to write a whole lot and blog a whole lot and then things changed and I stopped writing and stopped blogging as much. I realized that I didn’t necessarily have something I wanted to share with the world each and every day of my life and decided to start being more selective about what I decide to blog about.
And, as for writing, it’s all a mystery these days. I feel like I have forgotten how to write. I feel like my internal editor has taken over my brain and nothing I put into words is anywhere close to good enough for that guy. I also am not sure what I’m writing for these days. There are lots of other reasons why I feel my ability to write has seemed to disappear. But I keep trying. I keep poking at my several half completed novels. I haven’t given up.
One of the interesting aspects of this is that after ten years of writing a lot — two novels and dozens of short stories, the short stories seem to have completely dried up. So, in May I decided to follow along with storyaday.org and try to write a short story each day for a month in honor of Short Story Month. I did this a few years ago — it’s what produced Shady Acres, a 12,000 word (or so) collection of connected short stories about the residents and employees of an old folks home.
I thought I’d do something similar, but begin it with an old guy who works as a carny and then have each subsequent story be about a side character introduced in the prior story.
I got through two stories and then … just collapsed. I think I did really, really good with the first two stories, but as I pondered the third story, I just … well, the internal editor showed up and I felt what I was trying to do was utter crap. So I gave up until the last week or so ago. I went back to it. One of the things was that I came up with two different ways to approach story #3. When I went back to it last week, I decided to combine those two approaches into one story. It’s done. And it’s over at markpaxson.com.
If you’re up to it, check it out. Give me your honest opinion, if you care to share it. I want and need nothing other than your honesty. Thank you in advance if you take the time to read it.