June 24, 2013
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I’ve got some issues in my life to resolve. One of them is the incredible amount of time I waste on distractions. This blog, as much as I’ve enjoyed it and as much as I’ve enjoyed the developing community here, is one of those distractions. For years, I wanted to come up with a way to blog. I had a number of failed attempts, but with this little outpost I finally found a way to keep at it. Part of the reason I did was that I started to get feedback. Likes and comments and followers. I started to get some satisfaction and gratification from that feedback. As well, through this blog, I’ve “met” some pretty incredible people who have become friends in this odd, sort of disconnected, internet kind of a way. I mean, come on, I met the twin sister born twenty years later that I never knew I had. Some of you are better friends to me than many of the people I interact with in real life on a daily basis. And you can’t imagine how much I value that.
But the problem, as I’ve written or commented before, is that blogging has become a distraction. It is one of the addictions that have begun to dominate my life. Taking me away from things that are more real. More long-term. I have referred to blogging as like crack cocaine. It’s a quick hit. I’ve also referred to blogging as the equivalent of a quickie while novel writing is a long, slow love affair. I’ve been going for the quickie for far too long. It’s time for me to reacquaint myself with that love affair.
I’ve tried in various ways to do this over the months, none of them successful. So, I have to do it cold turkey. I’m cutting myself off. My Ramble needs to come to a stop for a bit. It’s time for me to re-discover myself. Maybe re-invent myself. Maybe just re-focus on the things that really matter and find ways to control the distractions that are more attractive, but less filling.
So, this little corner of the internet is going dark for a bit. Don’t know how long. I will miss it and I will miss you. I hope when I return, new and improved, you’ll still be here.
For now, I’ll leave you with this. It isn’t perfect, but it has some words and concepts in it that couldn’t be more right for how I feel now and how I have felt for far too long.